CHAPTER 40 U GOT MY LOVE/NAVEL OPERATIONS

CHAPTER 40 – YOU GOT MY LOVE/NAVEL OPERATIONS

Sometime during the night, Javi had gotten up and snuffed the candles, but the faint scent of sandalwood and vanilla still lingered. Kurt woke up to find he and Javi spooned, Kurt’s arm resting over Javi’s waist and Javi holding his hand. He closed his eyes again and just allowed himself to enjoy these moments. Last night had been both more difficult and easier than he had expected, but then he hadn’t known what to expect. He hadn’t had the dream about Antonio and Blaine in a little over a week, but its persistence bothered him. He didn’t know what he believed about dreams, but he’d only had a few repetitive ones in his life, and every time they had turned out to have some real significance in his life. One of them would be forever etched in his mind – Dave Karofsky kissing him. That had truly been a nightmare – both as a dream and the reality! The dream seemed so ridiculous at the time, he tried to dismiss it and just hoped it would go away. When it had become a reality, it had been horrifying! Dave Karofsky gay? And then Kurt’s life being threatened??? A lot of life-changing and wonderful things had happened as a result of it, but he’d been a high school kid being bullied at the time, and the bully had just kissed him and told Kurt if he ever told anyone he’d kill him.

He felt Javi stir and then roll onto his back. He stretched and curled himself into Kurt’s arms, facing him. “I knew there was a reason I decided on this couch; two can lay comfortably. Mmmm…the angels must have seen you in my future.” He smiled at the thought of angels concerning themselves with purchasing furniture. Looking over at Javi, all thoughts of Dave Karofsky just disappeared. Could there ever be anything as perfect as waking up with this unbelievable man every day? Surely, the angels were as concerned with that as they were with shopping for furniture!

They cuddled for a while, Javi softly singing something in Spanish. Kurt recognized the song. It was Todo Cambio, the title song of Mateo’s first album. The one that had launched them all into the outer space of stardom. He hadn’t looked up what the words meant yet, but he tucked it into the Mateo/Javi songbook he’d created in his mind.

Javi tilted his head a bit so he could see Kurt’s face. So much could be said about that face and yet a thousand songs could never describe his almost perfect features. Kurt looked down at Javi and smiled…and their eyes met and held each other, the feelings and desire that never seemed to leave them reflecting like a spark in a mirror. Kurt rolled over onto his side a bit more so he was facing Javi. He blinked and whispered, “Looking into your eyes, it’s like watching dark chocolate melting…very, very slowly. There is a part of me that could spend the whole day right here, doing just that. But, I can’t, you see, because the rest of you is soooo distracting. I can’t ignore your soft cinnamon skin,” Kurt ran his finger along Javi’s cheek and jaw line, “your delightfully sensitive ears,” he moved his finger over Javi’s earlobe and along the inside rim of his ear as Javi closed his eyes, “oh, please don’t close them for too long; I want to see them change…..as I..,” he slid his finger slowly down Javi’s neck until he touched the top of his pullover shirt, then ever so slightly moved his hand under the shirt and tweaked the nipple, flattening his hand and barely touching, slowly moved his hand in circles over it. As Kurt concentrated on what he was doing, all the while holding Javi’s gaze, Javi reached for the buttons on Kurt’s shirt and slowly began unfastening each one, although he had to force himself to go slowly. Kurt shifted his hand to Javi’s hair, running his fingers through the curls, over his scalp, and then started all over again, crooning, “And this gorgeous, sexy hair the color of midnight….” never taking his eyes off of Javi’s, then barely whispered, “and your tempting, passionate lips, just begging me to kiss them..My god, Javi! Do you know how much you turn me on….?” and before Javi knew what was happening, a very eager Kurt was combing both hands through his hair and kissing him with practiced intensity, finally closing his eyes. As Javi savored all that was Kurt and his kiss, he moved both of his hands across his lover’s chest, hastily pushing the shirt aside, wanting nothing more than to give in to his deepest desires….but, Kurt stopped him, stopped them.

Visibly shaken, Kurt took control again, and said in that way Javi had of saying the simple words, “Oh, no, no, no,” that sounded more like, “oh, yes, yes, yes…but I won’t, not yet,” he touched Javi’s lips with a single finger and took his hand, then silencing him again, walked down the hallway to the largest and most comfortable bathroom. He playfully pushed Javi into one of the three beanbag chairs, then sat down in the one next to Javi and looked up at him from beneath those impossibly long eyelashes, “I’ve been waiting all week for this, partly just to delight in that look on your face, mi Javito. Perhaps this will be new to you, perhaps not, but fantasizing about it was enough to keep me from falling asleep some nights. I almost called you two or three times, but….I wanted to wait, and I managed to take matters into my own hands; though it wasn’t quite the same without your voice whispering over the phone, it was good practice…and I do have your voice in songs,” he laughed. Javi didn’t say anything. He just waited. This was going to be Kurt leading Javi into Wonderland and he was a willing participant….so far.

When Javi remained silent, Kurt knelt down in front of where Javi was sitting and grasped his pullover shirt on each side and removed it, tossing it aside carelessly. Then, Kurt removed his own shirt, but much more slowly, allowing Javi to take in the sight of Kurt’s toned muscles rippling, absorbing the breathtaking sight of him lazily stretching up and backwards laying his hands behind him revealing everything that Kurt wanted him to see. Then, just as carelessly he tossed his shirt aside. Gliding the short distance across the floor like a cat in the wild, he sat down on top of Javi and said, “It’s always good to start the day off with a shower, don’t you think, mi agua dispueste bebe?” Javi looked up at him and couldn’t help but laugh, “Really, Kurt, my willing water baby???? Okay! Okay! You are so damn cute!” He knew when Kurt gave you that one arched eyebrow look, you better not interfere in….whatever it was he was doing right now…and besides he looked so incredibly sexy when he did it, he loved to provoke him.

Kurt leaned down and kissed Javi, running his index finger along the corners of Javi’s lips, and as Javi sank deeper into the beanbag chair Kurt slowly lowered his body lengthwise down Javi’s, his head coming to rest just above his navel. Oh, my God! What was Kurt thinking???? Javi closed his eyes, and then he heard Kurt whisper, “You do have underwear on, right?” Fortunately, yes, he did. As much as he hated it, he never went out of the house without underwear, but when he was at home all bets were off. He’d slept in his clothes the night before though. He mumbled, “Uh-huh…” Using the tip of his tongue, Kurt began softly flicking it in and around his navel, navigating the vulnerable, defenseless skin of his belly, then steadily increasing the pressure, and Javi laid his head back on the squishy chair and speaking somewhere between a moan and a sigh voicing just how helpless he felt, “Dios mi, Dios mi, Kurt….stop…..please stop….I can’t…”Kurt laid his head on Javi’s belly for a few minutes. Javi smelled the scent of …lavender?….he loved lavender but he didn’t think Kurt knew that….and then felt the warmth of Kurt’s hands slippery with oil moving from just above his pant waist, up his chest and into his hair, as Kurt settled over him, moving so his arms supported him as he leaned down again, this time, kissing Javi and settling himself onto Javi’s slippery, sweet-smelling torso. Javi was lost, utterly lost as Kurt, without breaking the kiss, reached down and undid Javi’s blue leather pants, unzipped them and then broke the kiss, looking straight into Javi’s eyes.

“Oh, bebe (babe), you’re all slick and slippery with oil…now you HAVE to take a shower. Can’t be going anywhere like that….please, let me help you get out of those clothes,” and as Kurt reached towards Javi as if to remove his pants, Javi looked up at him so startled, Kurt had to stop himself from smiling…”oh, no, my hands are all wet, I don’t want to ruin that beautiful leather. Here, I need to go get some warm towels anyway. While I’m doing that, why don’t you wash your hands and get ready for that shower, hmmm?, oh…and, much as it pains me to say this, leave your underwear on.” Then, Kurt was gone and Javi was….he didn’t know what he was. When Kurt had unzipped his pants, the last thing Kurt was thinking about was ruining his clothing! Taking him to the very edge of no return over and over, he knew Kurt was acutely aware of what he was doing to Javi’s resolve. He had no idea what Kurt’s plans were, but again, he had taken him completely by surprise! He quickly washed his hands and took off his pants. Now what? He and Kurt had seen each other not only in underwear but swimwear, Javi’s always revealing much more than Kurt’s, but they’d never seen each other completely aroused….felt it, yes….seen it, no, and if Javi was anything other than unbelievably bewildered, he was definitely aroused. He sat down in the beanbag again and waited, working to gain control of himself again. Kurt knocked lightly on the door and said, “Ready or not, here I come!” He looked at Javi and actually winked at him, “Oh, I did sooooo hope you were ready,” he said as he laid several large warm fluffy towels on the table beside the beanbags, and two pairs of underwear, both….bikinis??? Javi was somewhere between smiling and fear. Whatever Kurt had in mind, it absolutely, most certainly was not something Javi had done before.

Then he turned back to Javi and said, “Ya know, one of the things I really love about this house is how spacious the rooms are, and this one in particular, at least for my purposes at the moment.” He looked around him as if assessing the room again. “I really love the shower because it’s roomy, separate from the tub and the doors are opaque. You can see through them only enough to reveal a hint of the person showering. Oh! and there are two places to sit, we’ll only be using one of them for today, but who knows what the future might bring…”He looked over at Javi again, taking him in from top to bottom, making it very obvious what he was doing, and then he reached for the button of his jeans, locked his eyes with Javi’s again, and slowly unbuttoned them, lowering his eyes a bit as he slowly unzipped, allowing Javi to watch. As if talking to himself, he looked at his jeans, “Good thing I have lots of white jeans. These look like they’re a bit, um, oily.” And as slowly as he could, he slid the jeans down over his body and stepped out of them. “Oh, mi pobre bebe (my poor baby), you look a bit startled…or is that disappointment, maybe? No, no, no, I don’t think so. I thought you might like a change of pace…” Kurt walked to the beanbag he’d been using before and sat down, closed his eyes and folded his hands behind his head for a moment, stretching out and sinking into the chair.

Who is this person???? Javi thought. Kurt was wearing a thong! Modest, body conscious Kurt was wearing a thong! For once, Javi was glad that when Latinxs blushed it wasn’t quite as obvious. When he realized he was staring at Kurt, he quickly looked away, but this enticing man…whoever he was….had taken hold of Javi’s every weakness.

Kurt glanced over at Javi and asked, “Would you like me to get a tad closer?” to which Javi replied too quickly, “No! No, mi amor, stay right where you are….please.” But instead, Kurt got out of the beanbag and walked to the shower, opening the door and turning on the faucets to check the water temperature. Before Javi could close his eyes, Kurt was walking across the room, the thong revealing his tush, and what a fine tush it was! His mind was too busy relishing the sight before him to spend time describing it in his head. Kurt turned around, lowered his gaze and said, “The water is perfect, warm, but not too hot….things will be heating up pretty soon…”As Kurt opened the shower door again, he gestured for Javi to enter. But, then halted Javi placing a hand on his cheek, saying, “I almost forgot, although how I could I’m not sure. Before you do that, I want you to kiss me the way you would want to be kissed….say, if I were in that shower with you.” He lowered his voice and whispered, “Kiss me sexy, Javi….Show me….por favor (please)?” By this time Javi could barely think. He was like an emotional vessel, completely filled with passion, want and lust and before Kurt even got the chance to finish the words por favor, Javi was reaching for Kurt…and then Kurt stopped him again! This was driving him mad! “Oh, and don’t get too close, we wouldn’t want to accidentally…” Javi held Kurt by his shoulders, then wrapped his arms around his neck and pulled Kurt toward him, and said under his breath, “You’re reeeaaallly enjoying the taunting, aren’t you, Kurtito? Let me show you just how close I can get without accidentally doing anything, you little cock-tease,” and as he held Kurt’s face firmly in both hands, he placed his lips on Kurt’s, forcefully opening his mouth as wide as he could and using his tongue in ways he was pretty sure Kurt had never experienced, while moving ever closer to Kurt until their bodies were almost touching. Then, just as swiftly he let go, walked into the shower and closed the door. The water and steam engulfed him as he raised his head with eyes closed. He took a deep breath and let it go, not believing how close he’d just come to giving in. When he opened them, he could almost make out the blurred shape of Kurt sitting on the third beanbag facing the shower and from what he could tell he was completely nude.

“Oh, Javi,” Kurt said, sounding as if nothing out of the ordinary had just happened, “this is like watching you in a dream sequence, everything appears kind of gauzy and surreal….so sensual….but those bikinis have to go, remove them slowly please…I wouldn’t want you to slip and fall…” Javi turned his back towards Kurt, placed a hand on the shower wall to steady himself and then removed the soaked blue bikinis slowly, one leg at a time. He was already so aroused by all the foreplay, it was like a throbbing in his groin.

“Much, much better….now, please, get comfortable,” Kurt said, adding, “Well, as comfortable as you can considering your circumstances,” It was like he knew exactly what Javi was feeling. And he was reveling in his own perceived control. “You’ll find there’s a new bar of lavender soap.” Javi stayed right where he was, facing the shower wall, taking slow, steady breaths, trying to calm himself.

I did a little research on a song you sang with Mateo. Remember “U Got My Love”? I’m sure you do. It was written by someone outside the group as I recall and in an interview you and Tonio described it as just something fun you played around with in the studio and that it would never be released as a single. It was your first album and you wanted to show the world how versatile the group could be. Except it turned into the most requested song at your concerts, and when your fans were asked why, do you remember what they said? They said that the combination of the lyrics and the beat were so hot that they wanted to see you three perform it seeing if they matched…I’m assuming they meant the so hot part…..and they did, match that is. Some said, and I quote, in English of course, “Watching Mateo perform U Got My Love live makes me want to tear off all my clothes and attack them right there on stage!” Didn’t specify if these were male and/or female fans, but…anyway…. My those Latinxs can be hot-blooded, can’t they?” In fact, I couldn’t find a single official video, but I did find a few live videos on Youtube that were not allowed viewing in the US. Unbelievable! In the US of all places I couldn’t watch a video of Javi performing this song….and from what I read you never performed it in the US even when asked by the fans. Hmmm…..And ya know after I heard it a few times I just couldn’t get it out of head! The lyrics, the beat, the way it all progresses to….a climax. And then this fantasy started wrapping itself around the song, or maybe it was the other way around, but somehow we wound up here, with you in a warm, steamy shower covered in lavender scented oil all the while wishing I was in there with you, and I know you do, Javi….BUT we both know….okay, not going to go there….so! As I said, get comfortable any way you can, but if you need a little help, this is how I picture you….”

Suddenly, the sound of U Got My Love was encircling the room, the volume just right, loud enough to feel the beat and hear the words, soft enough not to be completely distracting, and most importantly, still being able to hear Kurt’s voice.

“Mi Javito, as I was saying, this is how I picture you, I can see you standing there with both hands on the wall….literally, I can see that, but there’s something else….I’m in there with you….oh, you tried to stop me, you really did….but I just had to feel that warm water slithering down our bodies, and then you turned towards the wall when I dropped to my knees in front of you…..oh, no, no, no, I’m not standing up again….not until I’m done..so, I’m looking up at you as I slowly slip my tongue from the bottom of….what was it you called me? Oh, yeah, a cock-tease…from the bottom of your cock to the head and back down again over and over….I’m in no hurry. And since this is just a fantasy, I’m free to speak…I’m free to do anything I want to do to you, mi Javier…Ramos…Ruiz….if it wasn’t a fantasy, well, I’d be having a reaaalllyy, realllly hard time speaking because that cock that you accused me of teasing? Remember that? I’m completely engrossed in teasing it with my mouth… and my lips… and I’m touching you all over with my hands just waiting for to you tumble right over the edge….taunting you…lingering here and there just biding my time….you’ll give in, I know you will….because I don’t plan on stopping until you do….Nooooo, mi Javito, stop begging me to stop…I just can’t…. I love the way you taste and feel inside me…so hard…surprised you haven’t given in by now….and I’m firmly holding that delectable ass….I just can’t help myself….I have to pull you closer and deeper until all of you is in my mouth….and your hands are almost pulling my hair you’re holding it so tight…me just waiting to hear you say, si, si, si….por favor, mi Kurtito…no, no, no, stop….no don’t stop…” Kurt had made sure U Got My Love was on continuous loop, so that, hopefully, he could time this perfectly. He continued describing what he was feeling and thinking about doing to Javi, knowing that by now they were both ready…the fact that they had held out this long….well, between the beat of the music, the words, the images that the song brought to mind combined with Kurt’s vivid description of his fantasy….it was almost time.

U Got My Love had played through about five times. As the song reached the verse starting with “remember, babe, you were born to be my lady,” and went into crescendo (the climax Kurt had spoken of), Kurt spoke through a moan, “I can’t wait any longer, Javi…I just have to plunge every single inch of your cock into my mouth….I want to taste all of you…” and as the song reached the words “you drive me crazy every time you kiss me sexy,” Kurt truly was unable to speak and all he heard was Javi’s voice somewhere between agony and ecstasy, saying, “Mi, mi, mi Kurtito! Oh, my God, Kurt, I’m coming….what you do to me….oh si! oh nooooo…”

When Kurt returned to the here and now, he grabbed the remote and silenced the song. Kurt could see a hazy Javi finishing his shower and when he shut off the water, Kurt was standing at the shower door wearing a pair of dark green bikini underwear, whispering with a chuckle in his voice, “So, was it a si or was it a no, mi Javito?” He told him where to find the towels and underwear, then said, “I’ll meet you in the kitchen.”